I know many of you watchers probably wonder why I am less active nowadays here.
Well there's a lot of things that adds to the list but I'm just going to mention a few.

¤ The lack of a proper computer
Yes as of lately my pc started messing up, deleting files whilst updating etc. Not to mention how it struggles with photoshop in general, it can't save a 1k X 1k file without crashing. So I've basically put digital art aside for now. (But I'm saving for a better one!)

¤ The lack of inspiration
Yes. I got a tremendous art-block going on. It's crucial for an artist to feel confident with their art, which I am not. I feel displaced, dried up, bored and like art in general is nothing that give me that boost of joy any more.

¤ The lack of joy
In general. Wherever it comes from friends or school or what else that brings me joy. I don't see anything nearby that makes my heart jump of joy, I feel dead inside. Like a hole if you understand.

So what am I going to do about it?
I really don't know, but most of it stems from my displeasing of school and social life. What I hoped to find in the school I attended to is not there. As my aunt told me; "some flowers require different soil to grow", I am looking for that. Looking for a place for me to grow as an artist as this place I am currently in keeps me from reaching the heights and grow as an artist.
My goal would be.. Trying to study animation, something that have been in my dreams since a kid. I've always admired the animators on the web like Edd Gould, SexualLobser and many more. Seeing their effort resulting in what I see moving on the screen made my heart jump of joy. That's what I dream of, drawing my imagination and make it come to life.

Cheers!
~Emfen